I've killed a lot of people in my mind. Would you like to be the next ?
Isnin, 14 April 2014
"Love is a serious mental disease." - Pluto
There is critical mistake is being made here. Love is not a mental disease. Desire is.
"So often we think that Allah only tests us with hardships, but this isn't true. Allah also tests with ease. He tests us with blessing and with the things we love, and it is often in these tests that so many of us fail."
I'm also included myself as the one who fail in this test. But this is not the end of my journey.
"There are at least 2 types of love. There will be some people you love because of what you get from them: what they give you, the way they make you feel. "
And this is what I felt like a few weeks ago. I was being confused by this feeling. Then I asked myself, is this love? And I asked Him, even if this is love, I want to let it go because, if this is love I believe that what comes around goes around. So I let this feeling vanish in the thin air. Because I got nothing to lose at the end.
"This is perhaps the majority of love - which is also makes much of love so unstable. If you're chasing feeling, you'll always be chasing. No feeling is ever constant. If love is dependent on this, it too becomes inconstant and changing. And just like everything in this world, the more you chase it, the more it will run away from you."
I wondering if, for all this time is it nafs? Because desire may cause me feeling that way. And what occurred to me during that time is I saw my past. Something about my past that made me feel that way. Its not love. Just a piece of memories that I lost.
"But, once in a while, people enter your life that you love - not for what they give you - but for what they are. The beauty you see in them is reflection of the Creator, so you love them. Now suddenly it isn't about what you're getting, but rather what you can give. This is unselfish love. This second type of love is the rarest."
I am hoping that one day I'll find the second type of love. Not the first one that I just found. Plus I don't think I can category the first type is love in my case. Admiration - maybe, but love - is not. Because love is not ever changing, it supposed to be constant, like how much you love God, and that feeling never betray you even how much He tests you, it just make you closer to Him.
So I conclude myself, it isn't love. Just a false alarm.
And of His signs is that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquility in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy. Indeed in that signs for a people who give thought - (30:21)